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It's hard to ask for help

Lisa Cunningham MA , BA(Hons)
Christian artist and author
international exhibitions

helping hand 2013I feel I need help. I know I need help. Yet, I try and help myself. It's hard to ask for help. Hard to receive help from anyone
I know I'm weak but I want to be strong in myself. I don't like being so sensitive. But God made me sensitive on purpose. And for a purpose. He wants me to be sensitive to Him. He wants us all to be sensitive to Him. To see and know His presence. I turn from Him because I want to pitch my own tent. Set up my own shop


It annoys me to be at His beck and call. It's some pointless, ridiculous game I participate in all too frequently. I'm talking small as well as big stuff. The postage stamp and the castle sized issues. I want to tell God how much better I'd be at it than Him


At self-governance and guiding my own life. I want to shake my fists and stamp my not so little feet at Him. What a child. What a baby. I say, "I'll do anything, use me" Then cry when He tells me what do because it hurts. It's going to cost me. Normally, a character change.  He doesn't answer when I want Him to. Often, not what I want either


What's so wonderful about Him is that he loves me unconditionally through all this struggle and hole digging. He loves me. He loves you

Article printed from at 14:04 on 15 August 2020